Before I get back to regularly posting, I decided I needed to chronicle the events of needing to find a new job. I thought that dealing with the emotions of being laid off was the hardest part. I had no idea that finding a new job would be so incredibly tough. I don’t feel like I ever lost faith or doubted God, but I certainly struggled with feeling like I had wasted the last 5-7 years. I felt defeated and frustrated. I was torn between looking at job boards all day long and taking care of my family. Do I check one more time or do I sit and wait? I felt guilty for not looking but I was exhausted from interviewing and applying. Nothing fit exactly what we wanted or needed. Either location was very undesirable or huge paycuts were involved…or the position was not at all what I hoped for. Neither my husband nor I felt peace at the same time. Thank God he was stronger than I was and encouraged me every singlestep of the way. Do we wipe out our retirement to take a paycut? Do we move somewhere we definitely do not want to live? How long do we look? How much more do I apply? When do I sit and wait? Am I doing enough or too little? Am I trusting God or wasting my efforts??
I finally gave up. I scheduled two more interviews and decided we would choose. We could not wait any longer. The last interview was for a job I applied to out of desperation. It was a generic position I applied to only because it was in a location we desired and at a good hospital. I knew nothing more. It usually took days, weeks, or infinite amounts of time to hear back from all of these electronic applications I submitted (over 100). I received an email back a few days later on my birthday. The position was exactly what I was looking for except that it gave me even more time to do what I spent the last 7 years doing. It met my desired salary and it actually puts us closer to almost all of our immediate family. I also had 3 random conversations, one with a complete stranger at Starbucks, during which they all praised the location and assured us it would be a wonderful place to live.
Speaking of Starbucks…there is one in the downstairs of the hospital!